It feels the same for me-trauma. And I sit here and think it has nothing to do with him. Intellectually, I can separate this out as not having to do with him personally, but that doesn't change the trauma feelings. And I wonder-if your brain is feeling the same trauma feelings from childhood, does that mean your brain doesn't know the difference; hence, you are actually being re-traumatized by feeling the original trauma feelings?


Yes, I agree, I think that he might view the emails as acting out, so it can help bring all the feelings into the sessions. So I'm ok with that-in that sense.

I've told him I couldn't afford a 2nd session. He realizes this limitation but has asked me if I could take a loan out. I did tell him recently that I am taking a consolidation loan out to pay medical costs and other past debt. I can use some of that loan money, very little, but it's already stretched too thin and I have no savings or disposable income.

Your advice about getting to the details is really, really helpful. We have been talking about the abstract, which causes my mind to fill in the blanks. I will ask for details next time.

I don't think there's much i can do instead. I have schizoid anxieties, so just a quick touch base with him can really make a lot of difference.