This afternoon my boyfriend asked me if I had finished working on a project I had mentioned tackling today - a bunch of paperwork. I said that I hadn't even started. Instead I had just been in the bedroom, lying on the bed, resting. He then said, "That's what I figured."

I am pissed off. He seems to be mocking me for not getting more done. He does nothing but watch TV. I am here with him because he has health problems and has been needing a lot of help. I'm getting sick of revolving my life around meeting his needs. The paperwork was stuff for him. He doesn't express much gratitude. He takes me for granted. Then he mocks me for being in a funk and not being very productive.

Now all I want to do is sleep. Next week is my birthday, which I mentioned yesterday. He remembered and said the date. But I bet he won't even do anything for my birthday. I excuse him a lot because he has some dementia. That doesn't explain why he never even thanks me for cooking dinner. He was never big into gratitude, but this is getting ridiculous.

I'm depressed. I've been doing a good job of fighting it off. I made the holidays as nice as I could. Now I'm sliding into a funk. He expresses no affection.