So, I was in a violent relationship. It started about a yr and a half into our relationship, he'd get blackout drunk and go absolutely psycho (once he tried stabbing me in the neck with a fork but pinning me down and strangling me was his favourite move :-( ) he was/is double my weight so there wasn't much I could do apart from hide but then he'd find me. At first he would cry and apologise and I'd take him back, all that stupid ****. Anyways, we broke up a few months ago (September) after I fled from house and spent the night at a hotel. We were together 4yrs and 7 months.
That's the background. Before the first "incident" I had an insatiable sexual appetite but that decreased after every attack. Now, I just think of sex as such a disgusting activity and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'm always going to feel like this. I can't talk about this with anyone. I don't want to be alone the rest of my life. Am I always going to feel like this? Has anyone out there had a similar experience?
Last edited by FooZe; Jan 13, 2017 at 12:25 AM.
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