I don't know how to begin here. i used to be able to express myself so well. Now I can't even think of the right words. I have battled depression all of my life. I have tried meds and doctors. Nothing has ever worked for me. Doctors who watch the clock, meds that give me severe anxiety attacks. I've always been able to recognize my issues and kick myself quickly in the butt and say :"you're going through a rough patch, you know what it is so deal with it". Not this time. I am having trouble functioning at work. I can't wait to get home and just sit and stare at the wall. No noise, no t.v., no music. Nothing. Just nothing. I'm scared and unable to help myself. My husband doesn't understand. He loves me and he cares and I know he would never walk out on me but it's not fair to him.
Maybe being here with others who deal with the same issues will help.