I don't think I'm paranoid in the sense you described, but as I said, exposing myself and my feelings is something difficult to do. I feel I expose my inner self and become vulnerable. I don't do this in real life. In my mind I cannot help by hear others pitying if not judging me, by saying he is wasting his life thinking too much instead of living it, or he has just to do it or he doesn't want to live or something similar. No one says this directly, but we have the ability to predict what others might be thinking. I don't know if it's just me or we all think the same way.

I recently finished my job and looking for a new position. I don't exercise, not anymore. I've lost interest and motivation in almost everything I was doing.