Hi all,

As you can see in my post history i've had a few bouts of depression but thankfully seem to come out better after some time. I feel like I am experiencing a mini-depression and anxiety over something I shouldn't be thinking about.

I also realize this post is going to sound like I am a terrible person. But I can't help it.

My wife and I have been together for about 10 years (5 married) and have 2 little girls. She's the first woman that I was with. We've had our ups and downs including a discussion of divorce last summer (mostly my fault).

I'll admit that i've been attracted by other women but nothing serious. I'm sure she has been attracted to other men...I think that is part of life. But I have never felt any feeling for anyone else, never contemplated doing something about it, etc. If anything in my mind if I thought a woman was nice to me or interested it would give me a boost of confidence.

For the first time since I met my wife I have become quite interested in another woman. I feel like she is into me as well. I think about this other woman all the time, become distracted, think about the different signals like I did when I was a young boy. I want to run into her and if I don't see her or have any contact I feel terrible. This has also caused me to get to what I feel is the start to my depression symptoms (losing interest in other things, can't get out of bed in the morning, etc.).

I don't know what this means and I can't simply avoid this other woman and stop thinking about her. But then I feel bad for thinking the way I do and it just keeps bringing me down. I don't understand why this woman has been so different than other "attractions" in my past.

Has anyone else been through something like this before? I am terrible.

Thanks.