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Originally Posted by Skies
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I would feel like he cares if done for the right reasons, so maybe I'll get more clarity. I lot of this ambivalence is related to how my parents raised me-no parenting; no rules. . .
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For what it's worth, maybe nothing, ignore if it's less-than-nothing -- this reminds me of what happened with my last therapist -- we came to an impasse and a rupture without repair which for me was a reenactment of a situation in my family of origin and for her was -- well, I'm pretty sure there was some transference/reenactment on her part because of some things that she has told me about herself.
That's been 5 months ago. I went through agony processing it on my own -- PC has definitely helped with that because I basically feel accepted here even with my flaws. Which was what hadn't happened in the family of origin.
Accepting/realizing that without there being someplace where I was OK was not possibly, not tolerable emotionally. I could never be OK to my last T, because of her stuff, which I didn't really see when I was caught up in mine.