my therapist is trying to get me to work on grounding stuff but im impatient i guess...

im just going to talk to her about this stuff and hopefully she can understand more about me by reading that crazy journal i wrote last year... its full of crazeeness... so hopefully she will read it all and explain things to me a little more or beable to understand how to help me more...

i hate this stuff, it sucks, no fun, and progress seems to be super slow (if any at all)
and on top of it i have the social security people telling me that i can work, ignoring my PTSD diagnosis and dissociative symptoms...
when im pleading and begging for understanding that i can't work due to these stupid symptoms... they are causing things to be more difficult and complicating my symptoms even more by not believing me.... like everyone else in the world... no one believes that things can be so bad for me... why? because i can wear a mask and everything seems fine to the people outside? thats not fair... sometimes i wish i could take the masks off the wall and smash them to pieces! they do nothing but get me in trouble...