When I'm around other people I can't help but notice I am the odd one out. I feel unable to take pleasure in the simple things in life. I have been depressed since the new year, though had a two day reprieve somehow, as if by an act of God, to tackle a job interview. But I feel like I have a low-grade depression, don't really feel like being around people and my appetite sucks. Trying to find meaning in this, but just wish I had my old person back that was sharp and excited about life. Now I just feel like a mediocre version of myself. Is this what it feels like to be depressed long-term.

Bipolar is getting the best of me. I wish I wasn't bipolar. I am starting wellbutrin so i have to have some faith that it will help me.

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Bipolar 1; mania with psychotic features
Lamotrigine 200mg
Quetiapine 100mg
Saphris 10mg
Ativan 2mg