Dear Ms. under the age of 25,
The answer to your question is yes. Yes there will be someone who thinks that you are worth waiting on no matter how long it takes you to fully open up.
I mean no condescension by remarking upon age however it is a key factor in where you are at.
You've lived through some fairly terrible situations and having survived that has left you with a way of being that right now others perceive as emotinally distant. Pardon my frankness........but screw em!
You're working so hard on your issues AS WELL AS going to school full time AND looking for work. What more do you want from yourself superwoman?!
You're doing the work. You're feeling the feelings (and just think of how long it has taken to get to this point of feeling...........truly feeling) and learning to move forward in a healthier fashion.
Yes......that person exists who will love you for you regardless of how many layers your onion has. (we're all onions and peeling away the layers often leaves us crying and raw)
Perhaps you weren't emotionally safe with Clint. But now you can examine that relationship and see what worked for you and what didn't. Hold onto more of what worked and keep trying to release the ways of being that didn't work.
You're doing this SC but often during the work we cannot see how hard we are trying. People can see that you're trying hard honey.