zijax-know how you feel-I went off all my meds except propranolol about 6 months ago. I missed "the real me" (whatever that means). I did ok for a bit then went into depression & have been struggling with mixed episodes & rapid cycling. Bleh so back on meds & trying Lamictal in place of Lithium. Best of luck to you & hope it helps that you're not alone in this













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