When it comes to my sexual identity I’m so confused. I haven’t talked to anyone about this yet. Few of my good friends know that I’ve slept with both men and women. So they classify me as bisexual. Another group of friends have no idea about my history with men and classify me as a lesbian.

I first had sex when I was 14 and that was with a guy. When I was 16 I came out as a lesbian. Since then I have a history of sleeping with both men and woman, but primarily being in relationships with women. Coming out as a lesbian was easy for me. I was accepted by everyone in my life. I’m scared to come out as bisexual because of the stigma around it. Honestly though I don’t know that I am bisexual. I have found men attractive, but have not had an emotional connection with them.

I’m so confused. I’m currently single and dating is rough because there are a lot of women that won’t date a bisexual woman. I feel I have to say I’m bisexual because I’ve been with men.
I think I need to figure out why I kept having sex with men. Overall I think it was because I was insecure. Also I was doing a lot of drugs and drinking and that’s mainly when I was with men.

It’s been about year since I’ve had sex. By choice, but also because of fear. I’m clean and sober these days and it’s something I’ve never really done while not under the influence.

I’ll be seeing a new therapist starting next week and this is definitely one of the things I want to work on.