Hello Justbyou: I'm sorry you are experiencing this confusion. In my case I have struggled with being transgender my whole life (never did anything about it though.) But as a result of that, I think I have at least some small sense of what you're experiencing.

I don't have any particular insight or suggestions to offer you. However I did wonder if you are familiar with the website: "bigender.net"? I'm not a member now, although I was for a brief time a few years ago. (I've had some contact, over the internet, with the founder & I know she's a good person.) Anyway, you might check that site out & see if creating an account there, & communicating with other members, might help you to clarify where you stand with regard to your sexual orientation. Good luck!

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