Dear Chloepie -- I think you are doing a wonderful job of processing all the feelings and insights that go along with grieving a relationship. I am sure that you will continue to know yourself better through this.

I, too, believe that it might be best to find a way to get out of the apartment, and agree that "in writing" is important.

(((((((((((((((((((((Chloepiece)))))))))))))))))))))))