Hi,
I am 37 years old and I have been drinking since I was around 20. It started gradually, my friends would drink but I wasn't too interested. Then I started drinking on the weekends. I think I drank every weekend until I got a dui about three years ago. I stopped drinking for two months. Then I started up again....I drink very heavily when I drink now and I used to drink 3 or 4...it got bad after I became depressed because of an illness...now I hate my behavior when I drink...also the dui....I get in fights too sometimes..i ended up in holding cells twice.... I need to go to aa...I have been to a couple meetings but stopped because I didn't want to stop drinking...I still don't but hate my behavior on it and drink much more now, once or twice a week but too much in a sitting like a whole six pack for a 130 lb female... or one and half bottles of wine...plus I am sick with Lymes and drinking is so bad for me...but I still enjoy it very much and its hard ... how do I stop?