Hang in there hon....I just so can't identify. Our parts have parts- nobody was spared of the trauma of abuse.

As far as this merging thing....most of us is appalled to integration....and our co-conscious just amounts to communication in mind....everything else is defined by barriers no one can cross.

If you are healing...I'm happy for you and yet jealous of you....but Godspeed in your recovery. Please keep posting your experiences so we can live through you.