Silver Queen, I have felt exactly the same way.

When I drove away from Florida to Orleans in May, I felt as if no one in the whole word really cared about me.

People kept telling me not to move away, that I needed support and sameness. I could 'hear' that message, but it meant nothing to me. It was just hollow words to me.

When I decided to come back to S. Florida, people I had known and people I knew barely have agreed to put me up. A former graduate student has tossed a job my way. I was greeted with such warmth. Suddenly, it seems as if love is pouring into my life.

How could I have missed this?

I was severely and dangerously depressed.

Thanks to the messages on the forums, I got:

1. Medication

2. Counseling

Prayer and the support of a religious community has also been important.

Bottom line: This kind of feeling seems to be one of the distorted ways of thinking that depression brings.