I don't like to think too much about whether life has a point. When I am in a pretty good place, I push big picture questions like this out of my mind.

When I am in a bad place, not being alive seems like lying down for a long and much deserved sleep.

What I pretty much know is that I don't have what it takes to suicide. So I've no choice but to do what I can to be in a good place as often as possible. To not make my presence too great a burden on others. To be polite, and helpful, and use environmental resources custodially.

I think that sometimes I have contributed something of value to the education of my students. I imagine that someone else could have done as well or even better.

I don't like thinking about this.