Thanks Wadjis.

Since my original post, I've made an appointment to see a personal trainer, dietician, and managed to get a few days work in.

I am still having significant panic attacks.

I was in the middle of a panic and I texted one of my exes begging her to take me back. Sh said and is now offended. We had been building a positive relationship and my text has blown it up.

I apologised immediately and tried to explain that I was I a major panic and was trying to find an anchor. It was only one message and now I am being hung out to dry. I feel bad about it. It just proves I am such a jerk. It was selfish to say something in the text as I obviously hurt her originally.

I'm still at my mums. I just need the company at night. Your friends aren't there at night.

Doctor gave me Valium. What does that do?