As others have said, your writing shows thoughtfulness, insight, ability to reason, and good use of English. Those are all indications of intelligence and education. Forget about the IQ score. In large part it measures your ability to solve puzzles. I have a benign brain tumor and some other issues. It is a problem sometimes. I am not able to do some things the way other people expect, and sometimes I feel like parts of me are broken. I also have problems speaking at times. The way I see it is that people expect certain things, but what they expect isn't always what is best. I get frustrated because people always want things too fast. I just don't do fast. The most important thing is to keep trying and not let it get you down. Many people think different is inferior, but that is totally wrong. Look for things to do that fit your strengths. I spent far too much time in my life working on my weaknesses and trying to be "normal". After a certain point it becomes misdirected effort. No one ever told me, "You should do this because you are good at it." That's a positive message. Instead I got negative messages, and I was always being hard on myself because I couldn't do something, or because I couldn't do it the way I thought I should. I was just beating myself up. You may find that some of the things you think are weaknesses are actually strengths. I don't know you, but in my case I know that being slow also means that I'm careful and attend to detail. I can do things other people can't because they don't pay attention or have the patience. Unfortunately, society doesn't value those things as much as they do social skills, multitasking, and fitting in. It makes things harder, but I know the problem is not with me. It's hard not to judge yourself for being different, but in reality the world needs all sorts of people, and you are just as important. An IQ is only a score on a test. It may be useful for some things, but it's also a way for other people to judge you. That's all. It does not mean you are not intelligent. You may be able to do the things you want, but may have to do them a little differently than most people. You may find that you can do things that other people can't.