I can't completely understand what you're going through and how it feels because I have my husband in my life. But I've watched my daughter who struggles with a physical illness and depression become so isolated and alone that it breaks my heart. What do I say when she cries and asks me if she'll be alone for the rest of her life? When she asks if anyone could ever love her with all her issues? It kills me to see her so alone. Add that to my list of things that I've screwed up--if I had recognized what she was going through and gotten her help sooner, maybe she would have people in her life. Friends? Someone's kind who loves her?
I am so very sorry there are so many people on this board who feel so alone and unloved. I see it every day in real life too in my girl. My deepest hope is that everyone who wants it finds at least one person IRL who understands, accepts and loves them