I know more about dissociative disorders than the other diagnoses that I have been given since 1992. So I feel more comfortable having conversations in this forum than the others.

I have been given a borderline personality disorder diagnosis by the staff at the VA Clinic in Lake City, Florida but they never set up any type of treatment plan for me. I was there for ten years! It is this type of behavior on the part of mental health professionals that makes me feel extremely paranoid. But the point is that I do not know what to say in that forum. It is my understanding with BPD the patient grew up in a very dysfunctional family and did not develop appropriate life/social skills. (I have heard that the mental health professionals label self harmers as BPD but I suspect those people have a dissociative disorder.) Most of my current problems come from not having a mental health professional on my side. What can you post about that?

I live with paranoia, fear, depression, anxiety, anger, etc. but I do not know what to say about those feelings that would help other people.

I am also totally isolated in life. I just emailed my sister and told her that I was going to move back to Lake City and put myself back in the Jenkin's Veterans' Domiciliary. It is the best place for me. My sister emailed back and implied that I was asking her for money!!! I did not say anything about that. I did move to Athens hoping that I would have some contact with my sister but only as a family member. I have seen her twice since May so there is no point in me staying here. She does not have any other family member and I don't so I thought we could develop a late relationship. I was trying to make up for a life of estrangement.

I am rambling so I will quit.