[QUOTE=winter4me;5458770]"it's always been like this"....
Usually, this is what we tell ourselves when we feel this way, we negate any evidence to the contrary, any time we felt good, or connected is discounted, seen as false.
It is important, even if you can't feel it, even if you need to curl up and away for a time, even if getting out and doing things feels "fake" somehow, to know it isn't "always"....nothing is always...it seems that way in the dark.....(((((((hug))))))---I withdraw for a time and then push myself back out...sometimes I make a big change (new job/go somewhere new to me, even if it is just a museum or a town I don't know....)[/QUOT

Thank you! Yes, right now I just feel very low, like no one cares - it's so extremely hard and I just want to disappear forever.