I really messed up last night. I did not say goodbye to my kids after the t-ball game so I went back to the house to say goodbye to them. When my wife got there an argument broke out and I showed my butt pretty well. I had a crying spell (uncontrollable) for about two hours. I could not breath and I was just really upset, angry at myself, guilty and felt like a failure. I am not sure what is wrong with me and why I am such a dufus. I only hope that I can get a do over. But for some reason I doubt it I feel that I lost the last chance to be with my family again.