Well i'll be honest. I was never the most outgoing person, rarely dated, lacked self-confidence, etc. She asked me out. I was excited that I was finally going to date a girl, which eventually turned into living with me, etc. For someone like me back then, it felt like I need to do everything I can to keep her otherwise I will never have anybody (as it had been so long).

Over the years my self-worth has gotten better. I excel at my job, I do well with kids, etc. There have been things we disagree with in terms of parenting, lifestyle (I feel she is a bit unmotivated compared to me). Although this woman that came into my life is newer, i've been feeling a little unsure about our marriage for a little while. In other words, the mixed feelings about the marriage were well before this new woman came around.

Thank you for the reply!