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Hey everyone,
I haven't really posted here before but I need to talk to someone.
I had a major life event happen almost two months ago and I can't seem to shake the depression that followed. Basically, my long term relationship has ended and we still live together, making the situation even more stressful than need be.
There is nothing that brings me any form of enjoyment anymore. I was severely depressed before the break up and now it just feels like my soul has left.
I used to be really into painting, playing guitar, and writing but I can't seem to even start with that anymore. I miss feeling things other than despair and the ripping feeling in my chest.
Lately, for about a week or so, I can't even look at myself in the mirror.
I think about ending my life every single day and I'm not really sure why I haven't yet. It might be I'm just too scared of the physical pain. I know I could do it though. I just don't want to be another disappointment and form of pain for my family. I don't have the means to see a therapist and my job is really time consuming, so I'm basically screwed.
I don't want to keep on feeling this way anymore. It's never ending.
Last edited by FooZe; Jan 15, 2017 at 02:25 AM.
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