OK now i have time to look at my parents.... my dad was narsisic (can't spell it), BPD, very controlling, abusive verbally, finantially, emotionally, and sexually.

My mom's just a mess. Possible DID, BPD traits, never really knows her 'reality'.

Reality was always changing in our house - with both parents. I'm dealing with the usual; depression, general anxiety, DID/MPD, a few phobias.... I guess it is no surprise that I really never trust people and am always looking for the bottom to drop out.
Kiya