I'm not in a relationship and only have a few friends. Whenever I try to do something, even just everyday things like cooking, exercising.. I'm hit with paralyzing shame - because I'm doing those things ALONE. I feel (or fear) it's because I'm not good enough for anyone.

I know these moments when I'm alone throw me back to my childhood when my dad didn't want anything to do with me - I thought it was my fault and felt ashamed.. I've started to realise little by little that this wasn't the case - that man was sick and twisted. It's still just a feebel belief I have in this, so I thought I'd share my worry here now to make it ever more real - that it isn't 'my fault'. These days, I choose to be by myself a lot of the time because I LIKE it that way.