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Old Jan 15, 2017, 11:42 AM
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SgtRock SgtRock is offline
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Originally Posted by maryrachel12 View Post
To SgtRock, and everyone else who has posted in agreement, I feel you. Right now I'm in a season where I don't have an active social life and therefore very few support people. Definitely no peer support (I'm 23). Anyway, I get that it's tough. Not sure if you have friends that aren't local, but two of my closest friends are out of state. I know that technology doesn't replace physical presence, but it sure helps being able to talk to them when I need to do so.
I have no friends. Local, out of state or even out of country.

On Christmas eve I came a hair's breadth of telling my brother to esad and to never contact me again. That he was dead to me, for the idiot thing he had the balls to say on the phone to me. No, losing the front end out of your Polaris Ranger plowing the road so you can get out isn't NEAR the same as me losing my car. It wasn't my idea for you to live off the grid, it was yours'.

Everyone else I knew from my past I've lost contact with. I've tried finding them, can't. They aren't listed in any phone book.

The ONLY person (other than my therapist) that I talk to is my mom. Well, I can't get to deep with her. She's pushing 80. And all it would do is worry her to death. Besides, there's nothing she can do, she lives almost 400 miles away. So when I talk to her, I try my best to maintain a decent face. Yes, everything is fine attitude. Even when I'm at rock bottom.

When I found a high school/college buddy on Facebook, I jumped for joy. Friended him. When I let him know where my mom retired to, he asked for her phone # and addy, said he drove through there all the time. Said he'd love to stop and see her. I told him to email me. Never heard back.

Then I had a big meltdown and dumped my Facebook. Well, he could still reach me even if he lost me email addy. My brother is on Facebook. He could friend my brother. My brother knows who he is and would accept his friend request. Nope, I guess he blew me off. Oh well... story of my life.

The Facebook story isn't recent. It happened about 4yrs ago.
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Let me run with you tonight
I'll take you on a moonlight ride
There's someone I used to see
But she don't give a damn for me

But let me get to the point, let's roll another joint
And turn the radio loud, I'm too alone to be proud
You don't know how it feels
You don't know how it feels to be me

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