Most of the time I wish my life could just end. I don't like life very much, and I have problems which I know will never go away. No one likes me and I don't even like myself. There is an inherent disrespect most everyone has for me. I have no value and no reason to be alive.

I turn 26 tomorrow and I'm a loser. I'm not a loser because I've accomplished nothing (though I haven't), but because of my inherent characteristics and personality. I'm just all around a bad person. Nothing about me is likable or admirable. Hence, no one likes me.

I'm unequivocally convinced that I should work towards ending my life. I think it would be better for myself and everyone else if I did so. I don't want to get better and "give life a chance". I couldn't possibly hate life or myself more. I just want to end my existence and be gone.