Teanne,

Your mother was/is a narcissist. I am sorry for how that affected you because these kind of people tend to desire the attention and like to have things around them that boost "their" ego.

It can be very hard to do trauma therapy because individuals that suffer from complex PTSD are individuals who have a great deal of emotional "hurt". Trauma work is difficult because talking about the thing that caused us pain means also "feeling" that pain which is something people who suffer want to "avoid".