I'm having similar issues. Last week was so bad I ended up making an emergency appointment with my pdoc because I could start to feel my SIs creeping back in. Having just gotten out of the psych hospital a month ago I was like 'I'll be damned if this happens again'. My t and I are working on some DBT and CBT to help me gain some coping skills and to help me accept that some things just can't be helped. I have to stop letting others rule how I feel about myself and learn to be comfortable in my own skin. She has me working on self-acceptance as the first step in that journey.