This will sound like an odd question.

I have some strong S thoughts regularly and have had 2 failed attempts.

Part of me genuinely thinks it's a matter of time. Not now!

I've been wondering about whether I should confide in a friend who knows my battle about what they should do if anything happens. They saved me once when I tried it so they know me. If it is way too selfish to do this then of course I won't and I'm not saying I definitely will (least not now) but I would like someone who knew where to go for my stuff to help my family?