Thank you Mr. Stranger. I do appreciate your response. I ended up calling the helpline but was too shy to say anything about what I was experiencing. But, it seemed to shift something in me and after i hung up, I ended up playing a game of Tetris, which actually made me feel a lot better. Now I'm watching tv.

Lately, I'm wanting to find ways to deal w emotions on my own. Instead of leaning on people in my life. PC is one way. I also know I need to exercise daily, bc it actually helps. It was just hard to get myself to today. Also seeing like 65 ppl view my other post, but no one actually say anything was actually very triggering. I am saying the word actually a lot lol. I also know its not helpful to jump to conclusions.

I do thank you mr. Stranger and appreciate your pov and info. Take care.