I figured. That's why I posted although reluctantly, because when I write something I expect people to acknowledge my post somehow. I'm not necessary looking for advice, just acknowledgment. Anyway, I'm trying to slow down here if I can and keep it to myself more, because the more I write the worse I feel and more importantly the longer I keep myself in the loop. I think I need to internalize these feelings. Glad you feel better and found other ways.