Hey tsunami
I'm just a few months into therapy, before I started I thought ptsd was only for soldiers.
So first I had to admit to myself that I went through trauma in order to even begin to associate the emotions to the memories.
Like you I had images in my head, but the feelings were missing. Only with the help of a psychoanalyst was I able to dig up emotions attached to the trauma.
And not even the original trauma, but the ongoing trauma that is still affecting my behaviour today.
So I'm aware that my past is effecting my present due to childhood trauma, now the hard part begins...remembering and reliving those memories and experiencing the emotions.
It feels good to talk about it, kinda like saying "I know you are there" when you are in a dark place and know you are not alone.
Keep us posted on your progress, our enlightenments could help others who struggle with similar issues, that is, if you are comfortable doing so.