Thanks for the reply's. It did help some to vent. I began taking 25 mg Zoloft last night & see my doctor in 2 weeks. I have fallen apart and do not know the man I've been married to for so many years. But I feel I am too old to start over, so I feel now that I must find a way to forgive, but I've made it clear to him, that trust will come hard and take time. This as close as I can tell to the kind of grief I had when my Dad died. I don't mean to be overly melodramatic, but seeing my doctor about this helped a lot too.

Anyway at this point, I want to mainly read and see how others have coped with similar circumstances, especially seniors. I really never gave much thought to senior married couple dealt with infidelity, when I was younger. At 25 or 35 yo, I pretty much would be very inclined to pack up and leave. Not now. We have so much togethor, especially children and grandchildren. But I have to admit, right now, I HAVE briefly fantasized about suicide or murder. Both seemed tempting remedies, but scared me so much I figured I better get some help.

Again, thanks and I will be around some to read and occasionally post.