Sorry about you ending up in the hospital. Ive been there many times and that's what I'm trying to avoid.
To answer the question of whether i could move out: no i cannot. Unfortunately my name is on all of the bills as well as lease. So i do need to stay here. And my family is generally very unsupportive when i have suicidal feelings or past attempts.
I'm not sure if she will move out anytime soon. We rarely speak. When we do speak she snaps at me for asking her questions.
I'm really stuck in a terrible position. I tried to talk to a suicide help line last night and they ended up trying to convert me to Christianity. I mean no one disrepect but that was not what i needed or wanted to hear at the time. Thanks for listening guys. I felt really poorly last night but i bought a weeks worth of groceries today, so I'll be knuckling on through. I wish i had one friend though. It sucks being lonely whilst also depressed at the same time.