I went out! It was snowing and my truck is at my mechanics for repairs, and I could easily have vegetated at home, and ruminated all by myself in my tiny apartment all day. Instead, I got dressed and took the bus to the middle of town. I went to the library, then walked along the Creek as the snow fell, and then had dinner at a local place I like, had dessert and coffee and wrote in my journal at a cozy little table next to the fireplace. I enjoyed a mountain view through large picture windows.

I will admit it was a little lonely being out all by myself, but it was better than sitting at home alone. I am trying to fight off severe depression and I have made a vow to get out of my apartment on the days I don't work. Yes I was lonely but I still went out among people and brought myself a step closer to getting out of complete social isolation. Because of my depression I got used to staying in bed all day reading, writing, and surfing the web. Now I am getting out and about and hopefully this is the way to heal.

It was kind of bleak out even though some Christmas tree lights are still up. January is always a difficult month. But I noticed it was still light at 5 o'clock so I think we are on the other side of winter.