That's the point, I guess it's opposite to my personality.. acting different than passive makes me feel creative, you can imagine how creativity is related to every kind of activity so it's the easiest example that comes to my mind.. something that just goes away with that sexual feeling, I would never think it's something good to me (actually yeah I would like it but it would come along probably with a pornography job where I only live about it and I wouldn't obviously be able to find a girl)
Actually I don't think I'd have radical preferences talking about a woman's personality, but many times I fantasized having a dominant role.. you see? It's like I feel deprieved of my virility, I don't like to say it with these words but I coudln't think of anything else.. and I know it may look like it's due to stereotypes but I don't feel it's like that in my case..