update: I am now with a new pdoc and things are going way better except for a drastic med change which is rather sucky. I have schizophrenia, Psychosis, SAD and social anxiety. for once in my life I am getting to the bottom of it. I have Hallucinated in 6 months and I am sober from alcohol for 17 months. But my last pdoc pumped me so full of awful drugs my now pdoc said that I probably had drug induced psychosis for 2 years it was just horrid. She basically said she didn't know what she was doing when she looked at all the last 4 years of drugs I was on. its nice to have a second opinion.