There are times I do need help desperately but turn it down. I wil get anxious for several reasons. Firstly I am embarrassed I am desitute and in a position of needing help in the first place. Then there is the fact I don't want to be in the position of owing someone something in return. I do find ways within my means to do so but I just feel so 'low' at having to do so. Finally, I find myself upset with the idea that I may be putting someone out - even when that help is offered. My anxiety just gets overwhelming. It is easier I rationalize to turn down the offer of assistance and tough it out myself.