I know we are not allowed to post any suicide thoughts, but what do I do if I want to hurt myself real bad? I only have 2 days of inpatient hospitalization and don't know if I'd have to pay out of pocket for additional days. I am trying to be strong and hold on. My visit with my therapist went real bad and I left very angry and then went drinking for lunch. I'm home alone now and feel scared. I just need someone who cares to talk with me.