It's always good for us here to be reminded -or told- of something another member is struggling with... and I think you're right about the depression helping us to push ppl away... maybe it so WE don't have to worry about hurting them (they don't care anyway logic) when we *leave.*

That you are able to realize it happens with your depressive episodes, try to also remember this and not make any final decisions during that time... gee if were really so 'easy.'