im still taking the meds...
just i been drinking ultimately and i havent had any in a couple days... or day... i dunno...

but it happens to me even when im sober, or when im drinking... its like something close to the surface and i just get shocked from feeling it... its like a dose of adrenaline... i hate that feelings...

you know that feeling when you are shocked and paralyzed because of it.... emotional shock... overwhelm... freeze, frozen... moments of pain which releases that dreaded adrenaline shock...