Hi nowwhere,

thanks for responding so fast. I called my insurance care manager and she is calling me back in 30 minutes to see if I called my T and got his opinion on what I should do. I saw him earlier this morning and it didn't go too well. I called him now and he was eating lunch but talked to me about my situation at home with my husband and how it makes me feel. I have an old half bottle of klonopin in my purse and it is too easy a way out. I am not sure what I need right now, but I do know I feel numb and very hurt and depressed. I had a recent suicide attempt in August, which was pretty bad so I am trying my best not to go there again. My T didn't mention me to go to the hospital but perhaps he doesn't realize how bad i actually feel right now.