ok... i'm catching on... i always freak when i hear the word suicide i guess... unquestionably true that fingers on a keyboard cant reach thru cyber and prevent anyone from doing something harmful to themselves or anyone... so it sounds like you're calm enough to distract yourself a little...

heck yeah... i'm listening... the insurance manager is gonna tell you what benefits are available when she calls? ok... take it step by step... sorry you feel low...