Hello Mr. Stranger: I hope your good-bye is not a sign of your intent to suicide. If so, please reach out, in real life, for the help you need. I've been hospitalized twice following major suicide attempts. It's an ugly business. If you don't want to or can't call a crisis hotline or go to a hospital emergency services department, then reach out here on PC via Personal Message to some member with whom you feel comfortable. I'm sorry you feel so alone. Please take care...