I've found that recently at least, I can get myself alone in less than 2 minutes. But sex and foreplay with my partner makes me anxious. It's not that I'm not attracted to him or don't have a libido. It didn't even use to give me this much anxiety. I'm just afraid I'm going to do something wrong, it's going to hurt/be too much, I'm not good enough in some way. Or that he could have a better sex life with someone else...I mean in some ways he has. He has given others orgasms, but there's something wrong with my body or just me and I only can if I'm masturbating.
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