there is a true darkness to depression... recently i saw my dad for the first time in 15 years... i told him how i'd battled depression for the past 29 years... he said "some people never come out of that depression."

it made me think how depression is the last stop before suicide for many... depression can kill someone... it's that serious...

God indeed works in mysterious ways... and we are all Blessed by God, whether we are aware of it or not...

i know faith doesn't work for everyone, so, sometimes its good just to keep a sense of ourself within easy reach... we become so bogged down in everythiing, everyone, no time, no energy, lose sleep, get tired, forget to eat...

single now, i don't have the distractions many do... but looking around, my plate is full no less... what i've been noticing these past few weeks is how many here are caretakers, providers for others... moms, nurses... healers...

its a drain to keep giving energy away if there is not some form of replenishment... how do you re-energize? for me, i pray... i write... i have my own dream fantasy world that is my comfort... music can be a refuge for me....